and i walked home from work that day and listened to Fuck Tha World by Lil Wayne and cried on the phone to my dad who said i needed to go to law school so stuff like this wouldn’t happen to me anymore, but he wasn’t angry or disappointed with me, even though he has high expectations for my life in terms of return on investment, he said she should have emailed me back when i asked when i was supposed to hear back, and i thought that was uncharacteristically understanding of him
and sometimes when i’m at work now i think about how my life would be different if i hadn’t sent that email, like how i would be able to afford nicer shit and have a secure future. and i think maybe the only way i can eventually feel good about not getting that job is if i do something even more fulfilling or more lucrative with my life, you know, so wish me luck i guess. in Fuck Tha World, Lil Wayne says “i try to forget about it and just stand strong / but if everything was cool i wouldn’t write this damn song / fuck tha world”
everyone (including david) knows i’m obsessed with him. thing is, how can you not be? oh and he has a reindeer sweater.